|ME: Lace up your running shoes. Walk - jog. Follow the path. RUNNING will find you.|
I thought it was over. You know this, whole I-love-running phase of my life?
There was a point I thought about ditching running, because I am no longer the morning person I used to be. My pace is no longer within 10% of my age group. It felt like faded glory of some sort. I registered for runs or signed up for free, but I would not make it to the start line because all I wanted was to catch up on sleep.
However, each time I turned my back from "running", I would always come running back to it. I gave up ignoring "running". I just had to admit to myself that I cannot run away from it, even if I could think about 101 excuses to ditch it.
I used to build mileage for full marathons, but it has been two years since I ran a full. After a full marathon back in 2016, I lost all clear motivations to do some maintenance run. I lost that healthy disposition towards "running".
And then it hit me...
Wait, I forgot about wellness while I was occupied by the very thought of transitioning from corporate to a new life path. I was too busy, and yes, stressed, that I forgot how running cleared my head even during the most toxic work assignments in the past. I forgot that feeling for a while, only to rediscover it after contemplating on some health-related stuff.
|ME: If you can't run in the morning, run at night. |
Now, I run even when it's late and I'm the last person to leave the gym.
I must go back to the one I love - RUNNING...and RUNNING is the very thing I have in mind whenever I sing "The Man Who Can't Be Moved" in my head. Running is that kind of person who can't be moved - just waiting in a familiar place, hoping to be found again by that his/her special someone. I must have missed running so much, that I'm beginning to romanticize my analogy.
I've been running regularly on the treadmill in the last three months. I have not hit the road yet, but the 3x-a-week treadmill deal is already progress, and enough validation that running and I are back together. 😊
|Just like in the not-so-distant past, I run on the treadmill for as long as I can or want...then I eat. Some things never change.|